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I cant fall asleep. I'm the dumbest person on earth. injured once, and now its a 2nd time. forget it, i shouldnt talk about it here. all i know is that i'm really dumb. no one will bother about a dumb girl.

I'M REALLY REALLY HAPPY WITH THAT LITTLE LITTLE SOMETHING I DID TO YOU!^^
I'M SO GLAD YOU RESPONDED WITH A SMILE!
MAYBE THINGS WILL IMPROVE, I'LL FORGET WHAT HAPPENED AND BELIEVE YOU.
I'LL REMEMBER YOUR BIRTHDAY EVERY EVERY YEAR!
I PROMISE YOU! MEATBALLS! WE'VE GOT MANY MANY MORE OUTINGS WAITING!
you're the bestest bestest friend ever(:

THANKS A MILLION GRACE! you're the best, i'm so glad i got that thingy off my chest. It has been bugging me since friday. sheesh, maybe mel can never make good choices.

anyways, i've been thinking again. a sign of mel when she's stressed. hahahs. i realised how i cant be bothered to phrase my sentences properly when i'm not doing english hmk. i realised that a lot of people think that i'm emo when i know i'm not. maybe i am unconsciously? i think i'm emotionally unstable, so i'm really really, honestly very very sorry to those i shouted at ferr very small matters over the last few days. its all coz of what happened on one terrible friday. everything on that day was bad. today was bad. i think my life is starting to get worse]: i still love the people who always make me smile, make me so so happy(:

GRACE!
JERRY!
KENNETH!
GEL!
CASSIE!
SONGHENG!
CLEMENT!

i just realised how this list is getting shorter by the days. maybe ten years later there's only grace there. honestly, i hope not. i'm scared to lose friends. i noticed i have this tendency to be really possessive over a friendship when i think its fading away, causing it to really end. okay, i know songheng will always be there too, well, he promised. he'll adopt me as his goddaughter. hahahs. okay, random random.

Ben, where have you been? i noticed how distant we are now. however, each time we see each other, it seems like we've never been apart. i guess this is true friendship, a true friend. i can freely share anything i want with you at any time. i'm s glad i've got you. thanks a million ben. your very random msgs that pop up on my hp always perk me up(:

actually, msgs from those ppl above always make me smile out of the blue. like, i'll just smile and everyone will think i'm spastic. hahahs.

goin back to slack.

i'm down to livejournal but when i decide to move totally, i will put the link here(:
maybe after olympics, so that i can mark the end of 2008 olympics with the end of this blog. was just thinking about the reason why i moved to this blog, how it holds all the ups and downs of my life, it really shows how my life is full of every nonsense and fun.

i was thinking about what makes me admire tyson gay although now he's not the world's fastest man.(thinking naturally comes when you dont want to study but dont want to sleep either)
i think its not his accomplishments or anything but more of his determination, his willpower, his sportsmanship. i really dont know how to describe it but he is an ideal sportsman. i think singapore table tennis team aint that bad either. although they aint pure breed, they put on a good fight, they persevered to the end. i must say that their work was indeed impressive(to a table tennis know-nothing)
was watching ndp ytd with my brother, and we were thinking that this year's was really really techno and the drill standard is way way better. it is impressive. i really want to see what we can offer for youth olympic games in 2010. its worth the wait i bet, the crazy ideas singaporeans have are simply so unexpected, so abstract.

DINNER TIME BEFORE I DIE FOR CHEEEEENAAAAA>.<

alrights, TYSON GAY didnt qualify for finals. honestly, its not his fault that he's off form. he sustained an injury. i mean, i'm really upset and all, but for someone with an injury, to not qualify coz of a mere 0.02 secs, i think thats very good already. plus he's aging quite a bit. okay, i should stop commenting coz i know i'm just trying to keep his good image in my head. i know he's good, he's always the best in mel's mind. hahahs. usain bolt and powell deserve this too.

okay okay, i shall stop thinking about how wasted it is that gay didnt make it in and start studying ecology.

BYE! i still love TYSON GAY!

okay, i'm not suppose to blog today but i'm so bored of studying and i dont know what else to study already. this is so scary, everyone's so hardworking. okay, now ryan wont believe what we say. i told him its tested, a few of us said the same, he dont believe. then we told him, fine, its not tested, definitely wont come out, he also dont believe. hahahs.

on a side note, just finished viewing the pictures from interact bonding day. interesting(:

TWIN IS GETTING PRINCIPAL OF ECONOMICS BOOK!(: dumb school ibrary dont have it okayyyy. pouts. i'm reading foundations in macroecons now. not now but suppose to just to pass time in the library.

LSAP interview, shall not talk about it. LQX! why you withdraw. pouts.

i think i'm going to move to another blog. i'm sick of blogger, so i'll move to livejournal or xanga. advise please!(:

i miss tioman, i miss the cows]:

OHYES! i have declared WAR with kenneth. yes, who's on my side! i bet everyone is. hahahs.

This is a totally random post until i remember what i wanted to post.

OH! i just did. yes, i miss mg days. the kap days, studying, breakfast after exams, etc. OKAY, elaborate more when i feel like it. going now(:

I've been trying to give my best into everything, trying, but i'm not too sure whether I'll cut the mark for it. I feel that i wont make it for english nor statistics. I hope i can get a decent grade for polar to stay on math track 3, i hope not to mess up bio in case they ask me to drop instead of dropping it on my own accord. i'm not sure whether to drop it or not but i'll feel better if i dropped it myself than get forced to drop honours. i want to do wel lfor econs, i hope i can do something good out of my project so in some way, i can benefit this school and feel more accomplished. i think i'm becoming more fearful, more insecure of life. i feel like i'm forcing a smile on my face, i feel like life's a chore, i'm just trying to live in a lie that i love all that i'm doing when i know i'm not.
what keeps me going right now is track, is my eagerness to do something that can benefit the school, the less fortunate. had a random thought during my papers this morning, the school seriously wastes a lot of paper. if i were to run a school, i would use recycled paper to keep the tables stable. i know the management will say that we can cheat or whatsoever. check the paper first then. i'll print just enough forms for people, maximize the spaces on each piece of paper, make students use notebooks for asignments instead of fullscape paper, make teachers used recycled paper when having extra lessons with the students. a few random thoughts.
NOBEL THE POWERHOUSE(:

STRIVE FOR EXCELLENCE

THE THING IN LIFE I REALLY ENJOY.

HAPPY BIRTHDAY RYAN AND BRYAN!(:

ps, bryan you still owe me my letter from like, 2 or 3 years ago. you told me to wrte you one coz you wanted one and you promised to reply but until now you havent!

anyway, finally got down to msging the birthday boys(:

back from tioman, i think i'll ramble a bit about it.

i realised that i prefer intertidal/marine stuffies to forest/mangrove type.
i like snorkling, i think its the coolest thing ever and i want to go snorkling for my birthday. change of plans!(:
i spent a lot, about rm140? spent it on food, drinks, ice cream, souvenirs. i think thats all. oh and snorkling of course! the ice cream's so cheap, i think everyday i ate about 2.
saw a baby shark, water snake, mudskipper, loads of shrimps, scorpion fish, jelly fish, clams, many many fishes(incluring dory and nemo and my favourite pipefish), corals, sea urchins, seacucumbers, crabs, pondskaters, water insects, sea snails, sea snugs, many many funny leaf litter creatures, cockroach, lizard, many many mosquitoes,frogs. i think those are the main highlights. i just love water! hee. i love tioman. hyper hyper^^ picked shells with shawn, watched stars with astro peeps, watch olympics, watched hbo, played cards, truth or dare, a lot of crazy things.
thankyous to zhong, wangdi, ryan, weicheng, shawn, cheryl, gel, cass, ding, cheeguan, theodore, ben, joshua, zuxin. i think there probably is more but these are those who helped me the most throughout the entire trip(: shawn is the most gentlemanly guy in this world or something. he's better than ac guys. hahahs.=X jkjk. he's just too excellent.

TMR HALF DAY OFF! declared for our good SAT and AP results(:

ANOTHER POINT TO ADD SPECIALLY FOR A BESTEST BESTEST BUDDY THAT I MET FROM ALPHA CAMP LIKE, 2 or 3 YEARS AGO? AMAZING WAY OF MAKING SUPER GOOD FRIENDS EH(x

ALL THE BEST FOR PRELIMS LEE SONG HENG!
YOU CAN DO IT(:
I SILLILY KEPT PRESSING THE SHIFT KEY WHEN I REALISED THAT I COULD JUST PRESS CAPS.
sheesh.
OOPS. I PRESSED SHIFT THATS WHY THE SMALL LETTERS
HAHAHS
SPASTICITY.

GOSH I'M GOING TO STUDY FOR ADVANCED ANIMAL PHYSIO!
ACIDOSIS
ALKALOSIS
ANF
ALDOSTERONE
SYNAPTIC CLEFT
AH CRAPS!

i think i'm going to get colonised by paramecium! was counting paramecium at 7 in the morning, then rushed for assembly at 740am, and while rushing, i splash a lot of water onto the dish used for counting paramecium and POOF! it all splashed onto my arm. during assembly, my arm started ITCHING. then now its itching again. paramecium colony growing on me! i'm going to turn into some bacteria monster!>.<

okay, afterthat, we headed off to bmtc. honestly, the bed and the food(if heated up) is definitely better than ours. so is the ventilation. best of all, its FREE! pouts. hostel is getting a bit not so appealing now. didnt get to go to the canteen to have those funky PRATA nor emart to get our stuffies for tioman trip]: andand, SOC looks funky and fun! just that they got a time limit. i wish it would be moved out of tekong and be available to all to play. hahahs. i tried to shoot. out of 6 targets, i shot 2 on the first trial, next time i didnt get a single one. worst of all, the ns guy had to keep helping me to hold the rifleee. pouts. i suck, i'm not meant for ns. hahahs. i'm going to be the downfall of singapore. girls should jsut go ns just to go to war. why war? coz the others probably would use males in battle, so the girls are there to flirt with the enemies' guys. HAHAHS. our joke of the day. nearly puked after the super rocky ride back, 3 classes(about 60 peeps) in one bus. 3 girls to a seat, 3 guys to a seat. i dont think at such a critical pt of time, guys should squeeze. it aint optimizing. i sat on the floor, so did johno]: but zhong and terry had a whole seat to themselves. hahahs.

BYE! going to tioman soon!]: miss me!=X

double post. wow. i'm amazed at how many people start reflecting more during our boarding days. i think its a good thing, its also the place that somehow, i start growing distant from people who were once my close friends.

to a very very dear friend, i miss the times we used to have together, the bus rides, train rides, meals, picture taking times, etc. i hope things will take a turn when the new year comes. just really disappointed how i dont dare to talk to you, the fear of you telling me that we cant be friends like before,although that is highly not probable.

BUG FLEW INTO MY ROOM!>.<

okay, nvm. i was suppose to go macs with benben who would get the olympics mug with me but now he cant.]: so, WHO CAN GO WITH ME TO SHARE AN UPSIZE MEAL WITH ME!(: i want the athletic cup, the running dude. oh please please please, or can someone help me get it please(: i'll forever be grateful. SMILES!

more things, mel is so whiny recently. SORRY!
yes, i'm upset for my friend/friends. please, people nowadays, people who dont belong in our little circle, they are the ones causing turbulance all over the place. just go far away, back to your own big big circle. dont come over and try to act like some big shot please. arghs.

also, SHAUN! can you please please understand that you dont know that person's personality! so i dont need you to tell me to just give in. last time you told me to tell me to shoot such a person in the face and now you tell me to just tolerate. you're inconsistent, you're so unpredictable, i really wonder whether you put yourself in my shoes before responding. POUTS.

My last random topic post before i decide to make this blog not so public anymore. Those who want me to add them to the 'approved list' of my blog, please tell me okay(:

Being a student
Being a student for the past 14 years of my life, I have learnt that there's always more to learn, especially when it reaches a point when I think that I've learnt everything that one could possibly learn in a lifetime. I admit that learning is not an easy journey, having the ups and downs just like any other aspect of life, but through it all, I've gained knowledge, wisdom and the ability to discern what is deemed appropriate for the society i live in. The ethics are not taught explicitly, but from experiences encountered. School provides us with academic knowledge,some other social ethics that are deemed appropriate by the environment we live in. Being a student also includes social life, friends and family. If school was just it, then we will be bookworms, not students. Students interact with the people in their schools, their families and teachers. A student not only learns intellectual knowledge, but also life lessons that will allow one to hopefully develop and grow up into a decent and civilised part of society. Now, what defines a decent and civilsied person? I do not actually think that there is a standard answer to this, as it is subjective to various perceptions, to various cultures and the society that you are living in.
I think, in Singapore, what we need is to be well-educated, able to act quickly and communicate effectively with people. This may seem like any normal person, but making the right and wise decision s what sets each individual apart. Schools, families usually emphasize on being a good citizen, not to break the law, etc. A student, being young and having a vibrant mind, ought to think of ways to contribute back to Singapore. At least for myself, I think that there are ample opportunities for education here and credit goes to the efficiency of the ministry and government. A student should learn to show gratitude, to be humble and not boast about his or her talents because if not for what the ministry has to offer us, we may not have what we have. Though tough, when we grow up, we know that we'll enjoy the fruits of our labour even more, and that it will be true treasures for us.
Students should be willing to persevere in hardship as society is changing and there is almost no time to rest. If we want to survive in society in the ner future, students should start trying to go through hardship, not always basking in their own comfort. In a very comfortable environment to develop ourselves, Singaporean students ought to be thankful for such a caring government that always tries to spare a thought for the people, putting others before self. If they did not, then we wouldn't have airconditioned classrooms with decent furniture, science laboratories with excellent equipment to aid our education process, to stretch our potential and make us stand out from the rest of the world.

2.4km beach run today, aka 2.4km run as well as cross country. came in 3rd, nobel overall first for cross country, 1st for mascot!

HAPPY
HAPPY
HAPPY
HAPPY
HAPPY
HAPPY

hahahs. you know how happy i am. plus i'm talking to twin!^^

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