7/03/2008 08:38:00 pm
Thursday, July 03, 2008
I'm here once again, nothing to do and i know i'm going to have a lot of things to say. in the last, ten hours or so, a lot of things happened. things that made me feel like this whole hostel life was going to get really messy, then something else happened, just when i was thinking about this person, this person came over to do something that, iono whether to believe or not, but i'll just hope its sincere. lets call this person bibi.
anyways, i really really really thank God for salvaging this friendship. i hope its for real, i hope there will no longer be misunderstandings. i missed our friendship, i hope it wont get strained once again. today what happened, i think its worse than what happened between us. i just hope know that you've changed a lot, a lot. i'm trying my best to accept, so lets try to move on and pick up the pieces okay? i'm really quite happy things are settled between us, i hope.
okay, another friend, lets call baba. i know you kind of hte me, think that i cheated your feelings or something, i really didnt mean it, but you never really got the hints i dropped and so i gave up, gave in. i havent heard from you in a really long time, i sincerely want to still be your friend alrights? i mean, you still msg me, say hi, but i can tell how you're protecting yourself from me. i'll be careful not to give you false signals anymore.
also, RYAN GOH! i'm really sorry about what happened, you may not have read it(something that i doubt you'll ever read), but i just hope that somehow things will change, and i hope you somehow find that something that was meant for your eyes only. i doubt you'll even be here, but if you pop by, dont think too much. i guess its no longer impt whether you read it or not. iono whether you've changed, but if you havent, then i dont think you'll be able to analyse why i did what i did. dont think too much, jsut assume it is just as what i said. i want to say a lot a lot of things, about how sorry, i want to tell you why i did it, but life just wont go on as i want it to if you found out. sorry, hope you'll still go to church, your religious believes, your priorities, its up to you to decide, no matter what i say, its nothing powerful enough to help you. this is spoken from the status of someone who used to be your friend.
LEE SONG HENG! HAPPY SWEET 16(: hope your oral examination went fine. you'll always be the first person i want to talk to(: i'll try my best to get a gold ferr napfa and make my sms coach proud! hahahs.
thats all before i leave, i want to leave without having thoughts held back from such an eventful thursday.
