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Children really do want to please their parents. Like when you hit your first pitch, you turn to see if your parents saw that and their smile just makes everything seem like it means the world. This intrinsic drive to please these loved ones shows that we were built to bring pleasure to someone else outside of ourselves, mainly, a creator. For me, I know that God takes please in me(Psalm 149:4; Romans12:1)I feel joyful, not those feelings of being on cloud 9, but a joy tha gives me the drive to go on. Its th joy of serving others that makes up for the pleasure that i bring to my creator. I'm still trying not to focus too much on myself, not to be so self-directed. I have yet to compreheng the full satisfaction of sensing His pleasure, stability and fullness that comes from pleasing my creator by following His ways. I'm walking as a child of light.

This was my qt(: i love it! hahahs. i'm going to make more tarts tmr(: i think their called tarts. hahahs. (i hope someone dont read this coz it suppose to be a surprise on sunday!)

I watched narnia today and we got cheated coz the tickets cost us ten bucks! hahahs. but the movie was rather good(: plus i'm realyl quite happy today coz everyone, so far, have said that my tart like thingy is GOOD! yes, mel's good at this and they didnt die from tummy ache. hahahs. only ONE person hasnt replied but i guess i'll get a reply only when school reopens. ohwells, this will train me to be patient!^^however, i dont mind getting an email reply on my tart!please please. hee. jkjk. actually, not jk but yea, you get it, i hope(: CHEEEESSSEEE!

then grace met me at city hall, since i was watching movie there, then we went to have dinner and shopped a little. that was when i bought my so called dress(: yesyes, but she didnt come to my house in the end coz she was feeling lazy/tired and she has a mock paper tmr. dont worry BFF, you'll do fine! i'm so sure. plus dont bother about those girls. just take it that you're a higher species and your knowledge is too difficult ferr them to comprehend! winks. i know its mean but thats a good way to learn how to forgive people. LOVES!

I'm really happy today! hahahs. i'm going to make more more more tart like things to give all my wonderful friends! i've given it to 4 ppl already plus my family(: there's stilll many many more, so i've got to make at least 2 more times to give about 12 more people at least. i think i can have about 6 containers each time i make?(: make it ferr my prince! hahahs. not my prince, knight. hahahs. whatever he is, he's my bestest church mate! and he's the only guy who can treat me like a princess and not be my bf(x

BYE! erik, please call me soon! i miss your voice you know. i miss you my friend]:

OH WAIT, I UPDATED YTD BUT IT DIDNT APPEAR, BUT INSTEAD, ITVANISHED]: SIMC PICTURES!(: there are many more to come, so enjoy these for now alrights. NOTE: Guys, be prepared to see the girl of your dreams! hahahs. at least thats what i think most guys think since all of them were head over heels when she arrived!

GAHS. my keyboard is crazy and its all acer's fault. HMPHFS. my lappy is sick again!]: i must go get a new one with douglas^^



ANNA THE SUPER POUTER!

KESHINIE THE SHEEP IN SHEEP'S CLOTHING!

LAKSHMI THE ONE I'M ALWAYS LOOKING OUT FOR(:

AND US IN MACS WHILE SHOPPING IN BUGIS!<3

i'm tired. no more pictures for now]:

HOSTEL RUINED MY DAY COZ LIKE, I'M REALLY STUFFY AND ALL FROM A FULL DAY AND I CANT SHOWER AGAIN COZ NOW THEY SAY THAT I MUST OPEN THE DOOR EVEN IF I WANT TO SHOWER. LIKE THE LEVELS ABOVE ME ARE GUY LEVELS CAN?! I JUST SHUT THE DOOR TO SHOWER, IS THAT NOT ACCEPTABLE? YEA, SO MUCH ABOUT THEM NOT WANTING US TO EXPOSE OURSELVES INDECENTLY. SHEESH. I'M WAITING FOR STUPID STUDY TIME TO BE OVER TO SHOWER! HOW DUMB. HOW DO I STUDY WHEN I'M WARM AND GOO-EE? YIKES!

okays thats to just let out everything. not that i'm not really angry over not being able to shower, but i think this is too much. maybe if the shower was bigger and we dont get our clothes wet then its logical to keep our doors open. sheesh, no brains people are looking after us, i think i'm seriously on the losing end.








NOTE: PHOTO OVERLOAD! okay not really, but quite a lot(:

SHOKUDO LUNCH!(:


grace is not suppose to be the main focus here, its the pumpkin soup. notice how nice it looks here and what it becomes later on.

this was grace's remaining pasta. she said the colour was the colour of salmon so she decided to make a fish. i doubt this looks like a fish actually.(x

then i contributed my remaining pasta too! plus the remains of the pumpkin soup on the spoon was suppose to be the sun. get the picture? its a fish in the ocean/on the ocean with the sun and clouds and very BIG GREEN EYES(X

then i couldnt finish my mango dessert so we added it to the sun(:
sheesh, the sun looks like an egg now rights? hahahs.

this was my mango dessert!(: its really really nice except for those, so called WORMY THINGS!
they're like, chewy and squeeshy, quite tasteless too]:

the remains of my mango dessert(right) after we were done playing/wasting loads of it.
ON THE LEFT IS THE REMAINS OF THE PUMPKIN SOUP! hahahs. see the difference?!
that's a mix of the soup with pepper, cheese, gorunded pepper, chilli, some ice cubes, i cant remember what else.

there, a more colourful version. dont it look more appealing(x ohyea, plus water! this was without the lemon yet i think. hehs.

THE SUPER CREATIVE PEOPLE![:
look, we're satisfied with our creativity!


the waitress asked how was the food and we went, you want some honest feedback? then we went on and on. qutie funny. yupps.

andand, i cant believe that i really wrote a chinese letter! i'm going to ace my chinese! hahahs. as if. someone's going to read until his tummy hurts. this day cheered me up so so much after having such a terrible week. i hope life was always so good(:

ah, yes, i'm actually loving my macrobertson's girls high school you know! screams.

ah i dont like my blog skin. ohwells. i got tired of it and i've had so many people telling me that they cant read my posts>.<

anyways, ytd was a BAD day i tell you. first, went down for games day and thankfully, Dr Sun was convinced to let A div play rather than have it today coz we told him that we had oganic chem paper. alrights he's quite considerate, i guess? but during the swop f our first game, i felt really lousy, with my chest hurting so badly til i was having difficulties breathing. it was rather scary, but i decided to try to pull through. thankfully jingmin had yichen to sub me halfway!(: yes, thanks a lot! it didnt get any better, so i told mong that i was going to go get my medication. afterthat, there was SIMC meeting, and the meeting for SLOs was like, the longest? sheesh, its quite unfair that SLOs got to be with the groups nearly 24/7]: at least i've got a girls school(: some australian girls school. my challenge group is a local school (with china candidates, i think.). where's the bad part? a bad tsunami hit my brains during the SLO briefing! then i went home and took some pills, made some instant noodles(at about 5) for lunch. hahahs. then i fell asleep til 7, and woke up with a fever=X i have been taking my medicine more regularly than before and i dont get well! this is not fair. i shouldnt take my medication like last time. hahahs.

at least today my fever's gone and i'm able to use the com ferr a while(x i get to reply jerry, and start ranting. hahahs. i love facebook!^^

oh andand, 25 may, there's MCI UNITED against church of singapore, as well as bryan's birthday, as well as relativity paper on 26 may. HOW?]: which will be my choice and which will be my opportunity cost? HAHAHS.



HAPPY MOTHERS DAY(:

today's a nice day, just that i'm feeling sick again. ohwells, i'll just take more medication. went down to church and the most wonderful person came today! the guy who never fails to make me feel like a real princess. maybe its just coz he likes to be knight. (x anyways, inside joke. hahahs. thanks a lot bestie(: 4th ime you wore jeans, still keeping the records ferr you.

also, joshua was being random and he was like, did you take 196 ytd? hahahs. i know you take it every sat, but not me. hahahs. and i'm going to remember to wish him happy fathers day on fathers day coz he wished me happy mothers day like, 4 times today? I'M NOT THAT OLD YET YOU MOULDY PEANUT.

Then we went to some jap restaurant to celebrate mothers day(: the food's really good but its rather costly. but, i love my strawberry roll!^^ it looks super posh can, just that everyone took a part of it before i even got a photo of it]: there was sashimi, my brother and i ordered one share each(x ah the food was simply heavenly.

afterthat, we all went home before my brother and i headed out. he went for MCI UNITED's soccer practice(: hahahs. go support them on 25 may! who wants to join? grins. maybe i can ask daniel! he's so definitely a soccer enthusiast, just that he's not from MCI. who cares. hahahs. oh wait but we got relativity paper on 26]: HMPHFS.

i bought mothers day presents!yes,3 of it coz one was ferr my brother to give and the other ferr my daddy to give. i knew they wont get gifts. hahahs. my mommie got a realyl good present this year. i bet she's really happy, just that i feel like my gift means so little right now. thanks a lot ferr making my mommie happy at least. sheesh, i should be happy and proud of you but somehow i'm not. maybe i'll feel even more inferior than before.

ANYHOOS, early HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO JACK AND ERIK(:

HEY!

48 hours have passed. okays not exactly the reason i came here err but i just remembered tat ap calc was 2 days ago. i differentiated wrongly! i differentiated with respect to x when i suppose to differentiate with respect to y! thankfully i figured out like n the last two mins and cancelled out everything. hahahs. i just hoped in that super rush 2 mins, i typed the corect thingy into my gc. i want a 5.

ytd i stayed over with cass(: it was realyl really fun, just that now she has so many things to laugh about at me. i shall not say what. hahahs. she told almost half the world already!

i'm really happy today, i dont exactly know why, well i kind of do, but i cant say it so take it that i dont know. hahahs. i'm happy almost everyday i bet. until something messes up and no one makes me happy again. thats quite rare coz of a particular reason. i'm really so close to saying it but i cant! i wont, its a secret for me to know and never for anyone to find out. you can guess. hee.

i'm a student liason officer or something like that for SIMC. hahahs. and then i'm going to be in a group of genius heads. OH GREAT. i asked daniel, whats the age range coz i dont want to feel so small, coz i'm always treated as the kid even if i'm not the youngest, and then cass and those around assumed that i was intending to find some realyl really cool foreign guy from my group. hahahs. i'm not interested in long distance relationships! hahahs. i support locals(x then daniel was nice and decided to stop teasing me and stopped veryone else too by mentioning someone^^ hey i really thought someone heard it can! i dont want anything to spread like peanut butter. hahahs.

also, i've got my ibanking keychain device thingy and it comes with really cute stickers! this thing is so funky can! i cant wait to go online and book tickets successfully now!^^

fever's gone, i'm really happy, but i'm still having a bad cough and sleepless nights. its just recently. i'm a happy walking zombie!(x

oh! today is the day many many people successfully scared mel and made her scream. okay, theo did it like a 10000000001 times, lux did it 101 times, darryl did it once. hahahs. darryl dont laugh at me>.<>

ohyea, cassie and i were talking about how when we leave the school, we hope all of us will still be as close as now. i hope that is possible, coz we want to see the guys shaving their hair! especially those that love their hair so much, ie ryan weicheng kenneth! guys going to NS never seemed more real. i'm so scared that all these friends will no longer be in my circle of friends once i leave the school.

5/07/2008 12:55:00 pm

Wednesday, May 07, 2008

I'm eager to share my math AP experience but there's a policy by the college board that says we cant discuss it until 48 hours after the examination. lets just pretend that we all didnt know that everyone was discussing right outside the hall after we got out(x

AH 48 HOURS QUICKLY GET BY PLEASE OR ELSE I WONT HAVE THE MOOD TO DO ANYTHING ELSE]:

a few funny things happened during the paper! i hope i dont forget it after48hours(x
hahahs
48 hours seems to be the lucky number or something. grins.

BYEBYEBYE!

5/04/2008 11:07:00 pm

Sunday, May 04, 2008

i'm having a big bad fever now and david claims that its high, at 38.1. i actually thought its considered slight fever only? so i'm suppose to be resting now but i really really cant. i've been sleeping so much today coz my whole mind just makes me sleep everywhere i am, even in the car. this is bad, and i feel like i'm going to throw up really really soon. pills that are colourful look extremely poisonous somehow=X but, thanks deb ferr it(: thanks kenneth ferr your nice white, dont look so poisonous pills too(:

OFF TO LIE DOWN(: before david slaughters me.
sheesh,my head is thumping, my eyes feel sore, my nose is running a marathon, my ears hurt, my throat hurts when i try to swallow anything. i'm the only wierdo who freaks out when i'm sick=X

5/03/2008 09:14:00 pm

Saturday, May 03, 2008

I'M REALLY REALLY HAPPY TODAY! I HAVE DECIDED TO MAKE THIS POST REALLY BIG SO THAT EVERYONE'S FOCUS WILL BE ON THIS POST(:
WHO KNOWS WHY AM I HAPPY?(X I MSGED SO MANY PEOPLE. HAHAHS. AS IN, I MSGED A FEW PEOPLE ABOUT WHY I'M HAPPY. WHO KNOWS, YOU CAN HELP ME TO SPILL THE BEANS. HAHAHS. HOWEVER, THESE PEOPLE MOST LIKELY WONT SAY COZ THEY'RE SILENT BLOG READERS, WITH EXCEPTIONS. HEE.

ALSO, I WATCHED FEMAN YTD(: I TELL YOU, ITS A REALLY GOOD SHOW JUST THAT THE ENDING IS JUST WRONG,BAD,WIERD, WHATEVER YOU WANT TO CALL IT. GEL AND I TURNED TO EACH OTHER AND WENT,'HUH?' QUITE FUNNY. THEN WE TOOK PHOTOS, DINNER AT HONGKONG CAFE(: *OUT OF POINT FERR A WHILE: I THINK CASS MATCHED GEL'S TOP AND MY SKIRT TOGETHER REALLY WELL(X* WE FINISHED UP THE POPCORN REMAINS BY PLAYING 'HAVE YOU EVER ___?' AND WE HAD THE BESTEST GROUP NAMES! TEAM COUPLE, YOU KNOW WHICH 2, TEAM ANTISOCIAL WAS IT? THE TWO GUYS, TEAM bimbo, GEL AND. ALL THANKS TO PEOPLE WHO KEEP CALLING US BIMBOS]: NVM I JUST CLEARED MY NAME FROM THE BIMBO LIST IF YOU READ MY POST PRIOR TO THIS(: THEN WE PLAYED TRUTH OR DARE, BUT I DONT REMEMBER ANYONE DOING ANY DARE? HAHAHS. I THOUGHT GUYS WERE OBLIGED TO SAY NO TO TRUTH OR DARE GAMES?*QUOTED FROM SOMEONE* GEL AND I WERE THE LAST 2 WHO ORDERED, BUT OUR FOOD CAME FIRST(: THEY LOVE US. HEE. OHYEA, THERE WAS THIS LADY WHO WAS THE COMBINATION OF GEL AND I: ANGELA CHUA. HAHAHS. REALLY FUNNY. OH AND WE WERE SPINNING THE TOBASCO BOTTLE HALF WAY, THEN THE WAITER WAS LIKE, CAN I HELP YOU CLEAR THE TABLE? HAHAHS. ALRIGHTS THE END FERR NOW, NOT IN THE GOING ON AND ON MOOD(X

ANDAND, NEOPETS HAS BEEN REALLY GOOD TO ME ALTHOUGH I GOT BLASTED BY MR SNOWAGER. BUT TOMBOLA GAVE ME 115 NP EVEN THOUGH I DIDNT WIN, WHEEL OF EXCITEMENT AND WHEEL OF MEDIOCRITY GAVE ME 200 EACH AND HEALING SPRINGS GAVE ME BACK MY HEALTH. I'M HAPPY TODAY(:

5/01/2008 04:18:00 pm

Thursday, May 01, 2008

i'm starting to panic over APs, so i'm not willing to study coz i dont want to find out how much i actually dont know and start panicking even more. well, i was feeling really scared, so i just looked up at my wall, the orange gigantic card y4 made ferr my 15th birthday. its amazing how amost 2 years have passed. well, not really but i'm trying to convince myself that i'm GOING TO BE 17(x i'll put up the note they wrote ferr me when i get back to the hostel. well, those words made me feel really encouraged. its like, barney loves you, we love you, God loves you even more! quote from fish's part of the card. felicia wrote about how i'll never get to be older or as old as her, tab wrote about being in childrens' choir, and elsa wrote about our beloved octopus creatures and colgate smiles(: these group of people are friends that i will remember for life. not just because we're in the same church, but we grew up together, stood by each other through think and thin, laughed and cried together. i remember our photo when fish, elsa and i made it to the top of the pyramid at west coast park in primary school. elsa still had 2 ponytails at that time! yes of course, our choir days, when uncle ricky made elsa cry, fish me and tab had solo parts, (i want to..BIRDS IN THE SKY) okays, no one will really get that except us. childrens' choir was what i loved, what i looked forward to in church sunday after sunday. i wished it lasted, but it didnt. i think we all were really hurt and we avoided that topic for some time before facing reality and moving on. i guess things in life really come and go, and nothing's meant to last. well, thats life ferr me. its amazing how the senior batch of choir members are mostly still involved with choir. siyang, shiyong, tab, jorel, quanxiang, etc.

its amazing how we somehow all got back into 1 group when we joined cell. if not because serene agreed to let me change group, i think i would not be with the youths now. anyways, i realised that i cannot carry on with this attitude this year, so i'm still trying to just live with my current group. lets just get it over and done with please? i kind of still want back y4. i'm not exactly against my group, neither am i for it. at least i've still got elsa(:

the childrens' worship band, disbanded, torn apart, never will i be as close to this group again. i really miss our fellowship, although i know its not very possible. i will never forget the p6, sec 1 days we shared together. you guys were the best friends i had, i thought it would last, but again, i was proven wrong. i never seem to learn my lesson, thus i keep getting hurt each time i realise that something wont last. now, i hope i dont make the same mistake, nothing last, live with it mel. mengyih, samuel, joshua, ryan, hope that you guys will never ever waste your talent. it was my joy, my honour to play in the band with you guys. i know i was really a pain at that time, but you guys gave in to me, accepted me despite my childish behaviours. when i cried, you guys were the ones that put a smile on my face again, encouraging me, lending me a shoulder, telling me a joke, talking to me, whatsoever. maybe that was why i never grew up, coz i had you guys to depend on. well, its not a bad thing, dont worry(: what you guys did ferr me, i'm really thankful. even now, mengyih has to give in to me, joshua jsut laughs at my childish behaviours and sam just smiles all day long. thanks a lot, even though we're no longer as close as before.

i'm scared of growing up. i feel really childish ferr my age, so scared that its not so easy for people to accept me anymore. forced to grow up in such a horrible society, i'm sorry if i hurt anyone in the process.

lets get to the school part now. school, mg still holds many memories ferr me. reluctant to leave at first, hating my present school for torturing me, hating my parents who made me really stressed over meeting the criteria of the scholarship, i know realise that it made me grow, a lot. maybe i'm not totally independant now, but much more independant than before. mg gave me my firm foundations in Christ, and if not ferr mg, i would have let go out christianity by now. i admit, the journey, the life of a christian is not easy. i struggled through yr 3, coz i've been in a methodist school since nursery. 11 years, and suddenly, i'm put in a SECULIAR school. (yes its spelt correctly, hee) seniors told me how many people let go of their religious believes coz of what the school taught, and i was scared to fall victim to that as well. over the last 2 years, instead of backsliding, i've grown closer to God, entrusting everything to Him. maybe still trying to, but i'm sure its so much easier than trying to take things into my own hands.

i've been living with this 'i-hate-this-school/nus-high-sucks' attitude ferr a long enough time. but for a few weeks, i've been reflecting on my days in this school. maybe it was tough, but i learnt alot, more than just things found in text books or math and science fields. i thought about whether i'll miss the school when i leave and this time, i realised that i would. iono when i started getting so attached to the school. maybe its just because as president, i just want to try to do something that is meaningful, thus i'm really trying to put in all that i can into it. i'm sorry if i'm putting this pressure on the people that are working with me, but i really hope that we all can make a difference, though it may not be big, but it will still be meaningful. i'm going to miss all my friends in this school when i leave, really. the guys are heading into army, the girls, going into all the really great universities. will i still be able to keep the friendships made? i'm scared that its going to be something that wouldnt last again.

maybe this post is all about my reflections on my sec school days. all the bittersweet memories, all the pleasures shared and PRESSURES shared, yes pressure, i can say that i am happy to be a nus high student. Maybe i dont dare to profess the name of nus high as yet, but i know that i will not be afraid to deny the fact that i am an nus high student. this school taught me how to have an interest in everything in life, how to persevere, and how to be someone who really thinks. yes, so now no one can call me a bimbo(x plus i've watched doomsday! okays, randomness can.

its really really bloody, so dont watch it if you hate those scenes unless you intend to do what i did, close my eyes whenever necessary, which means missing about 1/3 of the show. hahahs. i was being laughed at okays. andand, it was quite funny how the row in front of us got scolded by some uncle, i think, coz they were talking to loudly, according to the uncle. well, i didnt hear them say a word actually. hahahs. maybe it was us making a lot of noise(x with my screeches and everything. we didnt expect it to be some really bloody show. hahahs. too bad no chris evans=X hahahs.

ohyes, I WANT TO ANNOUNCE THAT I'VE GOT SORE EYES]: I HOPE IT GETS BETTER SO I CAN GO BACK TO THE HOSTEL SO THAT I WONT HAVE TO TRAVEL TO SCHOOL BY MYSELF TMR. MY NOSE IS BLOCKED, MY THROAT IS HOARSE, I NEED A DOCTOR'S TENDER LOVING CARE(x

HAPPY BIRTHDAY YVONNNEEEE!<3>

hope you're still doing fine in rp and i'm sure you enjoyed your birthday dinner ytd!(: HUGS!