1/08/2007 05:40:00 pm
Monday, January 08, 2007
why do i always do things i dont wish to? i dont get why i do things. but i know in everything that i do, i learn something out of it. and i know i learnt something in this again. maybe i just expected us to get through this and everything will be fine by feb or something but i guess its just not going to work out anymore because all we've been doing is not even thinking whether its even right. i guess now we roughly know? iono. i guess when someone tells me that the greatest thing in this world is when you love and get loved in return. i guess that only applies in some cases. and i guess its true that all good things come to an end. no exception to it no matter what. i'll try to comprehend what life has to offer. iono how i'll face up to another day or when will i be who i really was again. all i know now is that love really hurts especially when it never seemed to mean so much to others. love aint enough to sustain a relationship. its all that love holds that sustains it and its just not meant ferr me. and love was never something ferr me and i guess i've learnt that. it may take me a while to be numb to that.
i just wish i was still in the hostel now when i had hieu who was my super close friend. now who's there to talk to me and be my really close friend? no matter what, i still wish grace was in my school. ben might understand how i feel but he dont take it as seriously as i do. ohwells. my many other friends are great as well. thankies[:
if only you knew how i used to feel, if only you could feel the same way too. but since it never happened, i'll not have false hopes. i'll choose not to hope too much and face so much disappointment this year.
