7/28/2006 10:59:00 pm
Friday, July 28, 2006
sicksick):
got like 5 medicine.
plus gabriel's corniness
but his messages can cheer me up okays!(:
yesyes.
dont even need the corn in it.x]
coz it makes me feel chilly! hehs.
i shall go back to sleep again
HAHAHS
WAN!<3
pe. i'm sorry to have forgotten about you the past few days.):
7/25/2006 07:00:00 pm
Tuesday, July 25, 2006
WHAT ON EARTH IS MAGNITUDE OF FRICTIONAL TORQUE?!
PHYSICS AGAIN
NEWTON'S DONT KNOW WHAT LAWS
WE EVEN LEARNT HIS LAW OF COOLING IN MATHS!
WHAT IS THIS LAHS
I CAN DO IT IN MATHS BUT NOT IN PHYSICS!):
I'M GOING TO PERSEVERE AND FINISH MY HMK!
JUST LIKE HOW I DID LAST WEEK(:
I'M STILL GOING TO SCHOOL WHEN I'M SICK!):
MS CHUA IS SUPER UBER NICENESS
SHE GAVE ME ADVICE TO GET BETTER(:
YAYYIE!
I THINK OUR TEACHERS ARE GREAT L.AHS
YA
I'M STARTING TO LOVE HOSTEL BIT BY BIT
I WANT TO DO BETTER THIS SEM!smiles
EIGHT DAYS! more..
DEAR DADDY IN HEAVEN
listen to your dearest princess asking ferr strength to carry through this semester and do super a lot better than last semester. let her hand her entire life into Your hands and trust that you will work out any bad relationships with the people around her. especially with that someone thats super important to her but yet it seems to just get even worse with time.
AMEN
7/22/2006 02:44:00 pm
Saturday, July 22, 2006
i cant get over the dumb run
i hate my ankle
iono why i bother crying over an ANKLE
i did super badly ferr cross
do you think i can do it next year?
i dont even want to try
i dont want to face the disappointment
now my ankle hurts
let the pain get worse lahs!
i dont really care anymore
7/22/2006 10:10:00 am
battle of the bands was fun!(: i almost successfully took benben's ten bucks! but i couldnt.): he got funny friends. i know danny's cheena name now.x) i'm sorry i didnt buy from you lahs! ben nicer what.x) jk. danny's going to whack me. ben sneaked to the front during the 2nd half of the concert! he is almost deaf now! andand. he had frozen hands! poor thing. even have to eat grass now. aww. he said he was eating grass in the msg. hehs. he had to help tame the crowd.): i saw tons of people! hee. even cheryl daniel kegan royston! hahahs. aiyah. its super fun(: barker and i put together are scary lahs. kenneth was playing with his tie! its like. WIERD! kenneth ah! what were you doing?! oh. the maia incident was funny. hahahs. i shant talk about the run):
WAN!<3
7/18/2006 11:24:00 pm
Tuesday, July 18, 2006
I FINISHED PHYSICS!(:
UNBELIEVABLE RIGHTS
BUT I DONT HAVE CHEENA TEXTBOOK
SO I ONLY DID A BIT OF IT
WHATEVER I COULD DO
YA
THANKIES JOHN AND RYAN FERR Q4
I FORGOT TO HAND IN ENGLISH!):
MUST PUT IT IN HER PIGEON HOLE
FIRST THING IN THE MORNING!
RUNNING JUST GOT FUNNER(:
I'M TRYING TO FORGET EVERYTHING
WAN!<3
DID I MENTION:
I SAW DAN ON FRIDAY!
YAYY. HAHAHS.<3
7/17/2006 08:20:00 pm
Monday, July 17, 2006
I SHOULD BE DOING PHYSICS NOW!
I DONT FEEL LIKE IT
FURTHERMORE
I CANT DO PHYSICS FERR NUTS):
SO I JUST GOT UPSET COZ I TOTALLY SUCK
SUCK AT PHYSICS AND CHEM
BIO PROJECT ON GENITAL HERPES
ENGLISH FORUM THINGY
CHINESE ZUOYE WHICH I DONT HAVE THE BOOK!
I'LL THINK OF MUSIC(:
ITS FUN
AND I WAS FASTER THAN RYAN AGAIN!
SOMEONE WAS USING A CALCULATOR DURING MUSIC!
THATS THE BIGGEST JOKE(x
MITCHELL KEPT THAT LETTER(:
THANKIES RYAN FERR YOU JACKET(:
I'M LOVING SCHOOL(:
BUT NOT THE STUDY PART):
I WONT RUN TODAY
SO TIRED OF MY LIFE
why cant things be just like any other relationships
why cant we be smooth going like others
why do we always have something to argue about
although i know you dont mean it
i dont know why i why so much
maybe thats why
i really dont know
but i dont want to let go
i'm hanging on to you right now(:
i'm really sorry about yesterday
you dont look good without your smile
SMILE LIKE YOU USED TO<3
WAN!
7/14/2006 11:27:00 pm
Friday, July 14, 2006
WHY AM I EVEN INERESTED IN RUNNING?why do i choose to take all my emotions out on running? maybe what ryan has said is true. its not solving anything. why do i run and end up getting even more hurt, more upset? why cant i feel normal if i dont run ferr one day? i feel a super wierd feeling if i dont run in a day. i felt super lousy when my ankle was injured. it started hurting after training. i know the muscle pain is normal. but the ankle is collapsing. i dont care already. i'll just run while i can to do well ferr cross country. i really want to give it my best.
WHY AM I SUPER EMOTIONAL?honestly, i get agitated super easily. its just that i can put a lot of things within myself. only showing it to super close people. and some people who DO NOT understand whats going on just have to make it worse. you know how super ultra mega annoying that can get? so if you think you're way worse or you have tasted every single thing in life, DO NOT TALK TO ME. i do not need you to tell me that i'm not going through a lot. you think you know me but you dont at all. so dont act as if you do. you dont know the slightest thing about me or whats happening in my life.
WHATS WITH EVERYONE VENTING FRUSTRATIONS WITH ME?maybe you guys aint. but all your words are making me feel this way. i try to look at it differently but i cant.fine. so i dont put in effort into relationships or friendships. so how? you guys think i dont sacrifice ferr it. i'm sacrificing super a lot of ime when i suppose to do my hmk but i'm talking to you. i could be sleeping but i'd rather talk to you guys. and i get scolded ferr it. i try to go out. but you should know i've got authorities now. i cant be like myself last time. even if i could, i dont want to. let me live an ordinary student's life. PLEASE.
what is wrong with me?someone help me. i realised how much i havent been facing up to reality. I really want Jesus again. i realised how much issues i've avoided. i've deceived myself about. ya. there's something wrong with me. DEAR DOCTOR JESUS. help me. listen out to the desperate cry of your child. i miss my previous kind of life. i want it back!):
WAN<3
7/14/2006 03:17:00 pm
Everybody's got something
They had to leave behind
One regret from yesterday
That just seems to grow with time
There's no use looking back or wondering
How it could be now or might have been
All this I know but still I can't find ways to let you go
I never had a dream come true
Til the day that I found you
Even though, I pretend that I've moved on
You'll always be my baby
I never found the words to say
You're the one I think about each day
And I know no matter where life takes me to
A part of me will always be with you
Somewhere in my memory
I've lost all sense of time
And tomorrow can never be
Cause yesterday is all that fills my mind
There's no use looking back or wondering
How it should be now or might have been
All this I know but still I can't find ways to let you go
I never had a dream come true
Til the day that I found you
Even though, I pretend that I've moved on
You'll always be my baby
I never found the words to say
You're the one I think about each day
And I know no matter where life takes me to
A part of me will always be
You'll always be the dream that fills my head
Yes you will, say you will, you know you will, oh baby
You'll always be the one I know I'll never forget
There's no use looking back or wondering
Because love is a strange and funny thing
No matter how I try and try I just can't say good-bye
No, no, no, no
I never had a dream come true
Til the day that I found you
Even though, I pretend that I've moved on
You'll always be my baby
I never found the words to say
You're the one I think about each day
And I know no matter where life takes me to
A part of me will always be
A part of me will always be with you
i wished upon a falling star
that we would be what we were
i miss your touch and everything
i want you more than anything
just ferr someone super special to me. i wish i could tell you everything. i'm sorry if i changed ever since i moved over to this school. but honestly, no matter how superb my friends here may seem, they cant be compared with you. since the start of sec 1. every single day i'm seeing you. i never felt this way before. just like i lost a part of myself. i always treasure times with you. please. if i could make a choice, i would go back to MG. but i've chosen a wrong path. maybe? i wont know yet. but i still want to be there to encourage you even when i rarely see you. no one can be compared with you. besides God(: but no human is more significant to me. not even youknowwho. or any youdontreallyknowwho. i wish i could run with you again. its the motivational aspect of it. although sometimes i'm discouraged coz i'm not as fast as you. its a Godgiven gift and be thankful ferr it(: you're really the best(:
brother, i'm sorry about breaking down yesterday. i'm sorry if it affected you and kor. but i felt super hurt when you two were argueing across me using certain words. its hurting. but i cant side anyone. just resorted to asking you guys to do math. i have told you both howprecious BOTH of you are. just tell me whenever you need me. yuppies. dont argue like yesterday please. (:
WAN<3
7/14/2006 09:33:00 am
HEY CHERYL!(:
hee.
then again
why are we TWINS?x)
retard got spastic songs!
hahahs.
faraday cheerleaders!
'COKE IS FATTENING!'
quoted from cheryl
ten seconds ago.x)
hey theo conrad kenneth shuhui CHERYL(:
dumb rain):
cant run!
sniifffs.
7/12/2006 08:30:00 pm
Wednesday, July 12, 2006
wondering why ryan's a cheater?as in, the previous post.x)
its because
he cheated during track!suppose to run eighth lane
he cut into 7th then sixth!
so i had to keep puling him out.x)
someone's super lazy rights.x)
ohyes.
i forgot to mention one thing about iono when!
JOHN BULLY GIRLS!>.<
even his own twin lahs.
hmphfs
today toos.
along with weicheng!
weicheng ah.
your
perfect ten mei you know.
tsktsk.
conrad. you gang up toos.
so much ferr tying ropes during obs!
hee.
walking to clementi's super funny.
charmaine and pam ah!
john climb the bridge again.
then we walked in the middle of the road(:
til a car came. hahahs.
life just got brighter ferr me(:and maybe things might work out.but i dont dare to give it another shotits the fear and not youmaybe it might happen againWAN<3
7/12/2006 08:17:00 pm
YESTERDAY WAS THE BEST DAY SINCE THIS SEM(:
coz iono why(:
i smiled again!
sort of. fake or real, dont care.
ryan and i walked to clementi and back.x)
so wierd. hahahs.
jose didnt know there wasnt maths olympiad training
so we got back and ran to buy a drink
then it stopped raining):
so we couldnt dilute that ryan's drink):
now wash ourselves clean like monday.
ohwells.
i'm over it.
are you?hope you are 'CHEATER'(:
walking on the track barefooted.
splashes in puddles!
running, trying to beat each other to the BIG SPLASH!
then we got to flat smooth concrete(:
the clouds were prettyful(:
plus i was afraid of the birds
in case they poo on me.=X
then we played basketball(:
i got lucky spots!
hee.
ryan dont. tsktsk.x)
then we laid down on the benches.
i'm got more abs than ryan.
got back around 8+
sometimes the happy moments go past just so quickly
thankies mr good friend!
ps. i hope that phrase can tell everyone one thing.
he's just a good friend(: why?
coz we somehow can relate to each other(:
especially right now. SMILES.
7/10/2006 08:02:00 pm
Monday, July 10, 2006
i'm not myself according to everyone
srinath could roughly guess what it was about
mitchell and ryan toos.
okays fine.
actually the rest knew because they asked.
srinath knew it before i said it.
thats what true friends are like i guess(:
but i realy thank God ferr ryan mitch srinath michelle(:
yuppies. even cheryls!
hahahs.
ryan and i ran in the rain today!
well, he didnt but i did.
then we walked in the rain.
i'm sorry i cried.
but at least ryan felt better later.
pam was trying to stop us!
hee.
ryan, tmr's the day.(:
just let it all go okays?
i'm sure its whats best lahs.
yuppies.
i'm super sorry srinath!
i tore up your letter after writing it.
i'll rewrite you one.
smiles.
i'll try to distract myself by doing chem(:
or maths.
yuppies.
oh!
miss lim wasnt in school anymore ferr physics!
i think she's scared of our class):
honestly, i miss her presence!
ohwells.
so we didnt have time to complete our practical from last week.
i gues smr ang will kill us on thursday.
we'll tell him.(:
health check!
hee.
7/09/2006 11:07:00 pm
Sunday, July 09, 2006
did i mention the banana incident?
by request or mr sukandar!
to blog about it.x)
my banana mood day!
i scare mintuai
[however to spell]
and long
[however to spell!]
he said i'm crazy! hahahs.
okays.
i'mloving the bananas(:
anna!
and phuong.<3
wish hieu was here!
i miss our animal club.):
memories. sighs.
7/09/2006 07:41:00 pm
thankies ryan ferr that song
why cant i
it somehow reflects a lot.
but i'll move on(:
i dont hear the vulgarity
dont care even if i do
i want to be a nice girl again
i want to be a girl not knowing whats love
walking in the rain feels great(:
thankies to ryan again
we'll do it together ryan!(:
we'll run through this together
we'll be there ferr each other.
i dare not look into the sky anymore
its all because of YOU
i miss my vietnamese friend
the bestest one(:
he's always there.
he understands me
we stare into the sky together
we lie on the track relaxing
its the best feeling when i'm with him
i'll pull him to the track when he's back(:
back from physics olympiad
why must he help out?
i want to run with him again
his presence helps me
never knew this could happen
a foreigner; a local
bestest friends(:
of course my brother srinaht toos
and ryan!(:
and michelle and mich.
i love all of you to bits.
really. sincerely.
7/08/2006 11:11:00 pm
Saturday, July 08, 2006
hey you know who. i guess i can feel the way you do. maybe you dont feel it but really, you're the few that i can associate with. trust me okays. i'm always here ferr you as a sister.(: honestly, if you were another girl and you told me you were sad because of a break up because its the guy who did something to hurt you, i would tell you he's a total jerk. if oyu're a guy, then the other way round about the girl. but i know she's not that kind. coz i would never have gotten so close to her if she was those kind of girl. we're both more or less the same i guess. all we want is a sense of security from the guy we love. i guess you know that by now. maybe she could feel it but as we both know how she is, you got to say it. its a feeling thats hard ferr people who's not going through it to feel. just move on coz there's always a God whom we can love and our life should really evolve around Him. i'm always here ferr you okays. smiles. i cant remember what i wanted to say. but seriously, you're a great guy. she's really a lucky girl to used to have you okays. and you're lucky to have her. i guess i'll just be there to advice you if you need okays? smiles. so all the best with this period of time and we'll go hang out together to keep our thoughts away and just enjoy what we have now and move on from here.(: remember. studies is what we want now. studies lead us to a better future hopefully and that'll make her happier next time. yuppies. loveyou tons you know who. i'm always a sister you can count on.(:this is such a horrible life.i really need a purpose!):please return to me.whats rightfully minedo not take it away anymorePLEASE LORD.my first love will never fade.i will love JESUS(:
7/08/2006 12:37:00 pm
HIGH SCHOOL MUSICAL!<3
its super nice okays.
superb like glue!
iono why i said that.
i love it(:
7/05/2006 08:06:00 pm
Wednesday, July 05, 2006
RUN!):went back to mg today
it was fun lahs
with penny and all
i saw
CHONGand yolanda
tons of others lahs
i was in the staffroom!
talking to the teachers(:
ms chau, ms yeo, some other teacher.
hahahs.
teachers are super fun to be with!
andand.
i condemned physics(:but in front if my last year's physics teacher.
hahahs.
but she didnt hear me.(:
i feel super lousy to not be able to run.
looking at all the trackers ready to run
its like super hard to accept
why i cant run like them
i shall try to think no more
ryan wants his name here. smiles.iloveyou. but it hurts.
7/04/2006 08:19:00 pm
Tuesday, July 04, 2006
how do i survive if i cant run?
my doctor jsut gave me a warning. if i really want to be able to run for a longer period of time, i've got to let my ankle rest now. if i run now, i might not be able to run next time then. how should i make a choice? why must God let me have a hurt ankle when i really need an output at this point of my life? the worst times of my life. fine. its my fault that my ankle's badly hurt but why cant He just POOF and make it better? why must i be in NUS high by His grace? why must He make me love maths and science so much? why did He even make me enter express stream or get into some high up there schools? i've never been to a neighbourhood school. maybe it'll be so much better. cross country's approaching and now i doubt i can run. i'm set to take napfa this yr. i havent taken it before. i told myself last yr that i'll do it this year. my doctor said i could if i train. after all that trying so hard, i really want to take napfa. cant i just be a healthy girl ferr once? its annoying to always fall sick. or whatever. i cant run so i'll start banging my head! arghs.
now to grace.
you're someone that is super important in my life okays. i feel super wierd if i dont talk to you. you're more of my sibling rather than my own brother. you helped me with so much lahs. and i really mean it that if no one wants you, i'd rather abandon everything so you wontbe lonely. just like how i've realised you and someone cant get along too well, i chose you over that person. i wish i could live with you. sadly, my parents dont allow. i'm really scared i'll get influenced super easily. sometimes i have thoughts in my mindof just beinglike a total ahems. bitch. but i realise that its not what i can offer to God and its not what my friends would want. i think i'm really getting off track on my spiritual side. my life is sotopsy turvyy now. thats why i have to keep talking to you. i've never had a better friend than you. who cares whether peter says that we wont be friends once i'm in a different school? we've proven him wrong! hahs. hahahs. our friendship will last okays? smiles. i'll never leave you ferr anything. no more other person ferr me. dont want what has happened to repeat itself. unless you can get along with the next person. i'm trying hard to let go and to forget okays? smiles. we're dependant on each other!(:I thank GOD super a lot ferr letting you into my life! i'm sorry if i ever made you angry. especially the time when i yelled atyou just because you dropped my calculator. you know how much i adoremaths lahs. i'm super sorry girl. seeyou(:
ohman. i think i really need someone to talk to me and to let me talk forever and ever. i really love my church buddies.(: DANCERS! cell. you all make my life so much better lahs. janice is just like my parent now. i dont want to be lead astray! sometimes i'm so tempted to just drop out of school or something.
7/03/2006 08:35:00 am
Monday, July 03, 2006
DANCE!(:
someone just dont understand how much a ministry means to me
just keep asking me to skip dance practices
i'll still go even when my ankle hurts
or my muscles aching like crazy
coz i love TERESA!
hahahs.
and cassandra(:
and everyone else in dance.
yuppies.
daniel's mouldy bones.x)
the entire FUN-tastic was great!
CHAMPION TEAM WON!
hahahs.
then we pledge alliance!
whack the game masters with the bombs instead.
but the captain's bomb part was scary!
whole day just shouting
XIAO MEIMEI!
hahahs.
everything was funfun(:
and i just finished my physics to add on to my joy!
THANK GOD!<3
7/01/2006 08:40:00 am
Saturday, July 01, 2006
are twins alike?
yes!
thus cheryl is spastic toos.(:
youth day was okays
kind of just a day to spoil our mood
maybe not ferr people who didnt care
ohwells.
i still LOVE m06304.
i still think we can be united!
cheeky 1 and cheeky 2 were cinderellas!
plus michelle and i.
how funny.x)
john is cheeky two.
weicheng is cheeky 1.
credits to ms teo.(:
gabriel!
i'm really really sorry okays.
dont be disappointed.):
smiles.
mitch.
dont worry.
you're a great guy the way YOU ARE(:
thats why you're my wonderful friend.
weicheng took to boon lay with me(:
thankies. hahahs.
i'm the usual gang rights.x)
and then i didnt know i had clones.
hahahs.
i will beat you in that race game one day!
heehees.
ya.
i will.
thankies john ferr the coke lime.(:
i owe you one!
i got to do stuffies now. toodles<3